my jogging track ;)

after my jogging session (about 5:45 am), i captured some view from my jogging track, located at my campus undip tembalang, Semarang. its so gorgeous morning view, i can see mountain, mist, i can feel the fresh air, no pollution at all, and even you can found a cow here ;p

here are some pictures, oh so sorry if they look so bad, taken from my pda camera which's only 2mp (*have no more higher tech to captured them :( hiks )

oh aku dilecehkan (lagi dan lagi...)

Lagi gw kesal gara-gara “dicuit-cuitin” sama sekelompok pemuda yang suka nongkrong di deket kosan, ga Cuma sekali dua kali tapi sering, gw khan suka yang namanya jalan kaki kalo keluar nyari makan daripada repot-repot ngeluarin kendaraan, tapi kesenangan gw untuk berjalan kaki menjadi terganggu gara-gara segerombol pemuda itu dan selalu gw kesaaaal banget, padahal harusnya gw udah terbiasa dengan kelakuan mereka. Gw Cuma jadi sangat ingin tahu tindakan cerdas apa yang harusnya gw lakukan untuk merespon kelakuan orang-orang seperti itu, selama ini gw Cuma bisa diem aja dan ignoring mereka, pernah sih one day ada tukang gorengan yang coba “cuit-cuitin” karena pada saat itu gw lagi BT banget dan kebetulan itu abang sendirian, berani langsung gw samperin dan nanya “kenapa bang? Ada apa cuit-cuitin saya? suka?” abangnya langsung gelagapan dan kebesokannya tu abang gorengan ga jualan disitu lagi. Hmm sekarang ini yang gw hadapin adalah segerombolan pemuda gak satu orang aja, ada banyak anak2 muda nongkrong dan “cuit-cuit-in” pengen gw samperin omelin2in tapi takut yang ada nanti gw diperkosa rame2 haha mending kali ya diperkosa kalo gw dirajam pa kabar dunia 

Menurut gw apa yang mereka lakuin itu emang Cuma sekedar fun aja, ya tahu sendiri sekelompok pemuda berkumpul dalam satu koloni dan kerjaannya pasti ngejailin cewe-cewe (atau cowo kyk gw) yang lewat di depan mereka. Mereka tapi ga ngerti apa yang dirasa sama orang yang jadi bahan jail-annya, umm gw kurang ngerti ya tapi jadi bertanya-tanya apakah tindakan mereka itu termasuk bentuk pelecehan ato kah bullying? Haruskah gw merasa dilecehkan karena dicuit-cuuitin, atau malah sebaliknya gw seharusnya bangga sama diri gw sendiri karena keunikan yang gw punya orang jadi penasaran dan tergoda untuk menggoda. Oke mungkin menjadi pelecehan ato bullying kalo orang yang “dicuit-cuitin” itu merasa sangat tidak nyaman, dan mungkin bukan merupakan pelecehan kalo orang yang “dicuit-cuitin” itu merasa baik-baik saja bahkan seneng kali yaaaah dicuit-cuitin.

Gw curhat dong ke bokap dan bertanya what should I do daddy?? kalo kata bapak di rumah “makanya tumbuhin kumis sama jenggooot!” my dear father plis degh ga lucu khan sisi feminin bersentuhan dengan fisik mas.kuli.n penuh dengan bulu di wajah hahaha mungkin maksud bapakku adalah “be manly ben orak diobok obok karoo abang-abang.” Oo jadi nyuruh ikutan reality show “Be a Man” kali yaaaah apa “Be a neng” ??? Haha..

Oke cukup dan masih bertanya-tanya tindakan cerdas apa yang harus gw lakukan untuk menghadapi orang-orang seperti ituuh…

mama mau cucuuu!

pagi-pagi nyokaps telpon ujug-ujug kok ngomongin soal cucu (obrolan pagi macam apa ini)

''yah dek gmn masmu ga mau Nikah, ntar ga ada cucu dong?''

''laaa bukannya udah punya cucu dari mbak lia?''

''beda dong, khan dari yg cowo blom ada cucu''

“duuh hari gini masih mikirin cucu dari anak cowo apa ceweeee, sama aja kali ah, aku juga ntar khan ga mau nikah mih (maksud gw sama pere), tapi bukan berarti ga mau punya anak, khan masih bisa adopsi”

Gw terkaget-kaget aja gitu pagi-pagi udah ngomongin cucu ya ampyun mamiiii... Gw sih bilang ke nyokap jaman skrg mah mau cucu dari anak cewe ato cowo sama wae lah, mo nikah ga Nikah juga hak sErta pilihan, kalo menurut gw pribadi masih banyak anak-anak bayi nan lucu di panti-panti asuhan yang ditinggalkan sceara tak bertanggung jawab oleh orang tuanya, kalau kita mampu kenapa kita tidak mengadopsi mereka saja mengurus membesarkan dengan cinta kasiih sama saja khan daripada buat anak lagi menuh-menuhin dunia yang sudah sesak ini.

Jadi inget kemaren nonton berita tentang ''banyak anak banyak rejeki'' seorang ibu curhat bilang ''Ya Allah Pak, satu anak saya mampu mengurusnya, dua anak saya sudah merasa sesak napas nah klo tiga anak bs2 tinggal tulang ama kentut doang doong!'' gw ngakak bener deh denger ibu itu curhat. See curhatan ibu itu, ngasuh anak kandungnya aja ribet boo, gw ga mauuu dooong jadi kayak ibu ituuuh.

Jadi mnurut gw for now a days punya keturunan itu ga wajib yah apalagi kalo judulnya Cuma buat nerusin garis keturunan keluarga atau bahkan judulnya untuk memenuhi bumi. Wake up darling bumi udah mau meledak kebanyakan manusia, lalu klo ada yg bilang ''terus klo rak gelem nikah n punya anak yg mo ngurusin sampean di hari tua sopooo?''

Gw inget punya mbah putri (dari keluarga jauh) yang sampai sekarang belom nikah, hidupnya mapan, bahagia di hari tuanya walau tidak punya anak tapi memang sih beliau mengadopsi anak, jadi hari tuanya tidak sebatang kara penuh derita dan sengsara tuh.
aduh darlghing kalo kita ngomongin hari tua dan misalnya gw memang memutuskan untuk tidak memiliki keturunan ya harus di prepare dari sekarang dong, misalnya saving money buat hidup di panti wreda (banyak panti wreda yg bagus lo sekarang bak hotel bintang lima) simple khan, atau kalau misalnya pengen punya anak tapi ga mau nikah khan bisa adopsi, betul betul betul??? ya ya ya.. at least that’s what I think :)

saya baru tahu

omg call me retarded or morroon or emmm apa yaaah hahaha gw baru tauu lhoo klo disini ini di halaman "compose" nya bisa untuk merubah rubah warna pada tulisan kyuuu horeeee senangnya terima kasih bangeeet buat mas ganteng yang udah ngasih tau caranya muah.

kenapa baru tau sekarang yah?? hmm mungkin karena gw paling males yang namany ngutak ngutiik apalagi yang berhubungan dengan tech :( dari jaman kecil emang udah sering diprotes bokaps karna gw cepet banget nanya ini itu tanpa mau nyoba dulu :p

silaturahmi 3some

Senang sekalii tadi bisa silaturahmii sama temen-temen walaupun Cuma bertiga ajah, kebetulan temen gw si anien yang beberapa bulan lalu lulus dan langsung keterima kerja di Jakarta mudik lebaran ke Semarang dan kebetulan gw ga mudik ke Jakarta jadi bisa ketemuan deh sebelum besok si anggie mudik ke Surabaya.

Awalnya sih gw nolak ikuut yaa abis ini lagi kere horeee melarat rat rat rat mahasiswa tua mana dapet THR mau mudik aja dihantui rasa M.A.L.U (mending saiia ditanya “kapan nikah?” atau “mana suaminya jeng?” daripada “Kapan lulus?” “Kok belom lulus lulus?”) tapi setelah dipaksa, dibujuk, dirayu... oh yes dan akhirnya kita berangkat deh ke sebuah coffee shop di Semarang.

Ngopi ngopi ketawa ketiwi gossap gossip hingga tak ketinggalan poto potii.. oh noo kebiasaan kita bersepuluh jaman baheula waktu masih sama2 kuliah..

Baidewweii..kenapa kita bersepuluh jadi d payunks yaaah? Mungkin karna awalnya kita smua gemar memakai payung ga tahan panass bow, kemana mana payung is a must thing to bring selain dompet, hp, n beauty case.. jadilah ada yang manggil gw miss payung dan kita menjadi d’payunk hahahaha.

Aaah I miss my payunks badly…

Pamper boy

suddenly remember how my dad pampered me when I was a kid
Specially every times after I got hospitalized.
FYI When I was kid I've been 'bout 3 times treated at d hospital.

first i was hospitalized I ask my dad to bought me an aquarium with fish, without thinking twice or argued he bought me.

second time I got hospitalized I ask my dad to bought me a guinea pig, he bought me two!

the third times I have hospitalized I ask a puppy.. Then he bought me a puppy.
How happy I was as a kiddo ;p

Now I'm wondering if I need to be in hospitalized again, I would ask my dad to found me a hot hunk & get wed, would he granted for me? lol

*picture from zazzle.com

keep on dreaming

When I read a book ''your life only a Gazzillion times better'' by Cathy Breslin & Judy May Murphy, I found in a paragraph told

''remember everything in life begin from a dream, somebody could be dreaming about clothes or shoes you wear, house where you are living or even somebody could be dreaming about you''

then I'm thinking n trying to understand the essence from that sentence.
I know that's a simple sentence and if we read at a glance maybe even a toddler could get on it.

Dream here isn't a dream like when we have a deep sleep at night, I'm thinking dream here is a hopes, wishes, wants, or needs in our future.
So how come everything in life begin from a dream?

I Just remember when my lecturer said, our needs drive us to find something to get fulfil. Then I try to understand it as our hopes, wishes and wants, drive us and motivated us to do something to get reach.

It’s like when you’re hoping (dreaming) about someone, then u've been motivated to do something to reach that person, from simple thing like you try too look better in her or his eyes.
When you wish you could graduated & get a psychological major degree then it motivated you to finish your mini thesis.
When you wish you could taste a delicious tiramisu cake but you have no money to buy it because of d "old date" then you are still wishing everyday waiting until you receive d salary to buy it, then walaa you will taste how delicious is that cake.
Well our daily life is full of dreams, full of hopes and wishes and those are taking us to have a consciousness in our life.

Yeah that's why this book said life begin from dream. Then here comes my insight we can't remove or separate hope from our life, it just like one beautiful package from d Creature one that already given for us to live this world. So as long as we're alive we still have hope. as long as we're breathing we could still have wish
So keep on dreaming because dreaming make us to be alive.


*picture by cocodrillo

when tarrot is talking to me :)

My tarrot said that I need to refocus my mind to d core issue & business, it said that my illusions of love life would motivated me.

Well okey, i'll take that as the input for doing my days..
So Do u believe in tarrot or other kind of astrology thingy?
I always make that thingy as something to encourage my self :)

WHOOOOOOOOOOT?!

I JUST WANT TO SCREAM IT LOUD!!!

BUSTEEED!!!!


HUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

SO SILLY WILLY GIGGLY

when i'm thinking about love, here what i'm thinking about

People became so funny n blushing when they’re in love…
I have a friend when he was in love, his eyes would blazing some unknown object, that’s incredible.. some other will act like a fool, just like I were..

I don’t know but somehow love will give you whether bad or good side effects.
It's bad when you are in love & u give too much love to someone, why? b'coz it would be too bad when it gets over.
It's bad when you are in love but d man you love is not that into you.
It's bad when your love is start to hoping too much, why? b'coz it would be too bad when you finally realize tht you don’t know where you were.

It's good when love flaring some kind of new spirit into your life.
it's good when you focus on one person and think of him at nite before u sleep, at morning when you awake, at noon when you're on d path.. whole 24hrs, d picture of someone you loved will appearin in your mind whole days, and I believe it's good b'coz it gives a happiness and joy, maybe some kind of hormonal thingy (I don’t know what d heck is that) will produced n pumped into your whole body.
It's good when it brings some good ways changes into your life.

One thing to remember is when it gets Over Finito..
Just feel it, its natural being hurt, its natural to cry, just do it, embrace d hurt feeling, feel that feeling, enjoy it, kiss them, then kick them out of your life.

Always take d good of everything… and I will :)
At least that what im thinking about love and being hurt

The Love of Siam

OMG its 2007 movie and I just watch it.. (call me movie retarded :p)
The love of siam. Thai romantic-drama movie, written and directed by Chookiat Sakveerakul (got it from wikiped), such a family movie specially for teenage (thats what I think) have so many messages inside of it.. about love, friendship, family to take care of each other. yeah overall its about life, helping hand each other.
One side that make me became so interesting into this movie is they put about gay life inside of it, but not as the main whole topic, it just took a bit point view about their love. I think d writer is so brilliant. It shows people how’s gays feeling does exist and so do their love.
In whole package I like this movie, and I don’t really mind to watch it over and over again, beside d good story with full of messages inside of it, I got d bonus to see d handsome actor oh i love Mario Maurer lol
If you hvnt watch it yet, it’s a very recommended 

i called it FUN

bener2 iseng buat something for my birthday's friends..

this one i made for caca's bday last month.. jadinya huahaha... kayak foto pengeboom hotel j.w marriot ;[ but its so FUN to make it!!



this second one i made for nyayu's bday, i wasnt alone when made this, my bff ubur and putri was involved to make this one when we get sleepover at putri's house.. much much better then d first one hahaha



and the last i made for putri's bday, just an hours ago!! ugh its not maximum bad i think, coz im not in d mood, tired, just recovered from my f***n influenza but its still FUN!!



its FUN FUN FUN n FUN... saking FUNnya ni mata masih blom bisa ketutup padahal I HAVE CLASS @7.30 ugh... dan padahal lagi niatnya mau nge-jogging jam 5 ini.. mustahiiil bin mustajaab...

time to landing

after all this terrible silly heart issue, dampaknya cukup "a-waw".. gw yang udah coba berenti buat ngerokok dalam waktu setengah tahun ini, saking stressnya karna mikirin tuh pria memutuskan untuk membeli satu bungkus rokok mentol isi 20 dan udah kayak lokomotiiif gaaaak berenti berenti ngepulin asap.. sampe ni kepala pusiiing.. yes u'r rite im so silly n stupid.. whats wrong with me...
sweet Geez i need a counselor!

anyway.. yang sekarang terlintas dipikiran gw adalah fixing my broken heart.. ayoo hariii kembalii benahi hidupmu!!! cukup cukup nangisnya dan cukuuup dengan urusan pria itu,,, cukup sehari saja kau stressnya...
back to my diet program, back to my gym schedule, and please stop from that ash-smoke-cigar!!! and do your Skripsiiiii!

apakah pria itu sama dengan rokok yang membahayakan dan sama dengan skripsi yang membuat pusing kepala?

sama-sama tidak baik untuk kesehatan..
yang satu tidak baik untuk kesehatan jasmani yang satu tidak baik untuk kesehatan mental!!

yeah gw sekarang lagi terombang ambiing.. la nause.. nausea..Übelkeit.. muak.. mual.. i need to landing from this dizzy "love trip"

Ok.. i Quit!

September 6th I decided to stop..
Stop thinking of him.
Its hard, its difficult but d more I think of him d more I get hurt. d more I put my hope on him d more I get involved in a terrible heart case. Because he hung me over in some dark place I never knew.
He should know it, he should know it.. Yes he should know 'bout my feeling or should i scream it loud??
and now d part tht i hate is when I'm blaming into my self, of my physical, of my silly sissyish behavior. darn it!
There's nothing more I could do..
I give up yes I give up..
Its too hurt..
Its too hard..
I really thank full for d last 4 month I knew you.. I've learned how to hv deep feeling into someone, i've got through each day by thinking n hoping that u've same on me too.. But till now, I get unclear statement from you.
I'm really thank full because by knowing you, I can feel this feeling