Do you need some out in public experience?

Dear bitches wuzzapp!

What i love from weekend is sitting in coffee shop, listening to music, a cup of coffee, cigar, and hot stud who seliweran at this coffee shop, there are no tasks, politics, or whatsoever i met on monday to friday, im like free!
So i start this sunday morning on yoga studio, having a gentle yoga, freaking gentle yoga stretching my ligament, it feels fucking hurt!! but at the end it feels so much relaxing... just like another day after yoga session for finishing touch i went to sauna, more than 6 mos joining this gym club this is the first time there a hot stud came to me and start a convo, well it just a normal convo at the beginning but then this guy is start to seduce me and ask me to "go" out in public, it's like Whaaat??
ah damn, boys are always be boys, they need what called as adrenalin genital experience.

Well lesson learn, i found my self still attractive here, i guess im out of the market but the fact tell different today :)).

Cheers for life!

homo homini lupus

Hellow world!
Bulan ini bener-bener deh ujan terus ga berenti-berenti... ya berenti sebentar terus ujan lagi.. banjir? pasti...
gw emang lebih suka panas terik dibandingkan dengan ujan! ga tau kenapa, tapi kalau ujan itu jadi lembab udaranya, trus dingin.. sini kan masih jomblo ya x)) korelasinya sangat kuat antara curah hujan dengan kesendirian yang mengakibatkan bete sepanjang hari!

anyway, hari ini tapi matahari nya lumayan oke, pagi di hari sabtu ada sinar matahari itu suatu berkah! jadilah gw langsung capcuz ke gym, niatnya yoga tapi telat 5 menit kelas udah running dan ga kebagian tempat... ibu ibu ini pada cepet banget sih datengnya! akhirnya 35 menit di  treadmill latian alat bentar ditutup sama sauna dan sekarang nangkring cantik di salah satu coffee shop langganan... it feels like my second home! heaven!

Entah karena sudah terbiasa sendiri, gw ga masalah sama sekali berjam jam duduk disini sendirian, gw bisa bebas mikirin apa aja yang gw mau, ngeliat apa aja yang gw suka, browsing apa aja yang gw pengen, it feels like i have a quality time for my self... Emang perlu ya menurut gw, besides quality time with besties we do really need quality time for our self, to pampering body and soul.. halah gw bisa aja bilang kayak gini soalnya gw kan emang jomblo hahahaha... forget it it just my bullshit :))

Kemaren di kantor salah satu temen resign after more than 5 years working, me my self hate farewell,  gw juga bisa ngerasain apa yang temen gw rasain itu setelah lamaaa banget berkarir di kantor gw yang sekarang, gw berpikir "ah gonna be tears and gloom today" but the reality is there were no tears! yang gw liat malah temen-temen yang lain bersikap biasa aja hmmmm seperti cuek? ignorance? gw ga ngerti ya apa yang mereka pikirin dan rasain... kemaren sih bertempatan dengan meeting di divisi gw,  bos gw cuma nanya "tau ga ini apa? " - nunjuk ke cake box yang dikasih temen gw sebagai tanda  perpisahan.. melihat dari tatapan bos gw, gw cuma batin "you know what is that..."

terlepas dari masalah apa yang menjadi latar belakang dia resign, gw kehilangan sense of  sympathy, i dont know am i rite or wrong but i just dont feel it anymore from my environment, people here just like ... oh dear...

gw semakin bingung dibalik semua kebaikan dan senyum disekitar gw, apakah itu tulus atau....

gw jadi inget di pelajaran filsafat, "manusia adalah serigala bagi manusia lainnya"

i do really miss the sincerity....

new year is coming!

merry christmas beautiful people! what santa gave you for christmas this year? me naked hot man under the xmas tree... no i lie

so we are counting down to the new year, ga berasa ya bok 2013 udah dilaluin dengan segala rutinitas yang ada, pekerjaan, persahabatan, pergebetan yang ga sampe sampe jadi pacar, one night stand with stranger, broken heart, laugh and tears... ah all of that stuff just make us become stronger right?

im starting to list down my wishes or bahasa kerennya new year resolution for 2014.. while im getting old  i need to prepare my future seriously... i dont want to focus on "searching for mr.right" anymore. so please remind me if i feel so blue because of my single status hahaha.. f!

focus on work and how to get me back on my shape is way more important i think..

so happy listing down your resolution for 2014.. remember a new year means welcoming new age and fucking wringkles hahahaha

cheers

Bull bull Bully!!!!

How to banish bullying actually? we just can't avoid it, i mean everywhere there must be a guy with these attitude... 

"No body but u your self can destroy your life" my boss once told me after this horrible guy at the office try to make a joke by mocking me on how the way i walk... 

Been there done that shit like whole of my life. What he did to me, bring back my memories to school environment where kids still haven't got any knowledge about how to treat and respect another. 

I thought i can handle it, i mean been there situation like much.. so i think i can taking care and control my emotion but dude am just human with dynamic emotion over here... i have such a limitation of patience and understanding... it starts from a joke and then it turns to humiliated me. 

Some people are sensitive, over sensitive, some others have no sensitivity nor empathy. Then i feel sorry for them. 

I don't know how to react, but feeling anger and sad, like very sad.

But then what we can do, can we do something to banish bullying especially in our society?

as i remember there's this word of life "treating others the way you want to be treated"

Evening Tears

I'm just listening to the clock go ticking
I am waiting as the time goes by
I think of you with every breath I take
I need to feel your heartbeat next to mine
You're all I see in everything

I just wanna hold you
I just wanna kiss you
I just wanna love you all my life
I normally wouldn't say this but I just can't contain it
I want you here forever right here by my side

All the fears you feel inside
And all the tears you've cried
They're ending right here
I'll heal your hardened soul
I'll keep you oh so close
Don’t worry; I'll never let you go
You're all I need
You're everything
I just wanna hold you
I just wanna kiss you
I just wanna love you all my life
I normally wouldn't say this but I just can't contain it
I want you here forever right here by my side

No one else would ever do
I've got a stubborn heart for you
Call me crazy but it's true
I love you
I didn't think that it would be you who made it clear to me
You're all I need

I just wanna hold you
I just wanna kiss you
I just wanna love you all my life
I normally wouldn't say this but I just can't contain it
I want you here forever right here by my side

-David Choi... By My Side-

If you read this, where ever you are even ur in heaven or hell maybe... i miss you really much