my sOng, as bitchi'es

CANDY LICK IT

Boom-ba-da-da-da-da .…
Baby work it

I met a real cutie
He had a nice tight booty
He seemed to be the freaky lover type
Let's cut right through the chase
C'mon and get a taste
You've got to face it
So that I can get hype

Ya gotta lick it before we kick it
You gotta take that extra step
So we can kick it
Ya gotta lick it before we kick it
You gotta take that extra step
So we can kick it

Boom-ba-da-da-da-da .…
Baby work it, baby work it
Baby work it, baby work it ....

My lips are sweet as candy
I need a man that's handy
Don't be a tease just give me what I like
I'm full of freakiness
So come and get with this
And make me purr
So we can do this right

Ya gotta lick it before we kick it ....

Boom-ba-da-da-da-da .…
Baby work it, baby work it
Baby work it, baby work it ....

You know men are dogs
So go bark up somebody else's tree
Here boy come and get it

Ya gotta lick it before we kick it




http://www.justsomelyrics.com/428688/Candy-Lick-It-Lyrics

gosh

Mandy and Austin have been

going out

since 7th grade, now they are in 11th

grade.

Mandy has been thinking of

breaking up with him.

One Friday afternoon, on their 5th

anniversary, Mandy and Austin where

talking over the phone:

(Phone ringing at Mandy's house)

Mandy: Hello

Austin: Hey Baby Girl, how is it going?

Mandy: Alright, u?

Austin: Pretty good, so are u still up

for the movie?

Mandy: Im sorry i can't go, i promised

my little sister that i would take her

out to eat today.

Austin: That sucks

Mandy: Im really truly sorry

Austin: Its all right, so can u got

tomorrow then?

Mandy: I cant, sorry, i have to go

with Alyssa and her boyfriend to the

mall.

Austin: U know, it seems like u have

been avoiding me this past few days.

First u cant go out to dinner with me

because u have a paper due, then u

cant come over because u are to tired,

and today during passing periods u

totally ignored me. I had something i

wanted to give to u.

Mandy: Im sorry, im not trying to

avoid you

Austin: U know what, I'll just talk to

you later, im going out for a drive.

Love you!

Mandy: Im Sorry

Austin: Oh by the way, i bet u dont

even know what today is.(hangs up the

phone)

Couple of hours later Mandy came back

home and found a gift along with a

card for her on the kitchen table. She

opens the gift and finds a beautiful

necklace, then she opens the card and

reads:

"Happy 5th anniversary, I love You!

P.S: I'm sorry for the way i acted

over the phone."

Mandy takes up her gift and the card

up to her room and goes to sleep.

***1 am in the morning***:

(phone rings at Mandys house)

Mandy: Hello

Austin's brother: Hey mandy, my

brother got in a car accident and is

in the hospital. Apparently he was

going over to your house because he

wanted to give u a little note he

wrote for u

Mandy: OMG!!! please could you pick me

up and take me there?

Austin's brother: Ya, ill be over in a

10 minutes.

***10 minutes later***

Austin's brother picks her up and

takes her to the hospital. When they

get there she goes straight to Austins

room where the doctors are putting a

blanket over his face. His parents are

crying. His mom walks up to Mandy and

hands her a note.

Mom: Here i think this is for u

Mandy opens the letter and reads:

"I love you"

I love your smile

I love your kisses

I love your sensibility

I love your hair

I love your touch

I love your smell

I love your warm hugs

I love your everything about you

I love you

Never forget that

p.s: with out you I would DIE!"

(Mandy then starts crying and

collapses on top of his body.)

Mandy: (crying and in a whisper) I'm

sorry, I love u, please come back.

*copied from friendster bulboo

Gosh..

im mess out so mess out, im desperate..

desperate for being alone, desperate for being a stupid idiotic person...

i feel im a big looser for now...

i never satisfied with all i am, i have no rite activity...

so empty...

meaningless person, yes thts me, just call my name if u want to know someone with no knowledge, with no brain inside his head..

why God still giving me breath n this life???
to make me suffer, suffering till my last breath.., isnt tht cruel...

im broke, and broke again, im down, im so down till d deepest down on earth...

God!

please hold my hand n take me from dis-

mr.Sissy

Im sissy, yes i know tht, i realize tht, and i accept tht condition...

BUT MOSTLY my neighbourhood, my environment reject me as a person, they cant accept me!

udah dari gw duduk di bangku SMP, gw ud di cap sebagai banci, sebagai bencong, sebagai pria cantik..

dulu waktu smp, kelas gw di lantai 2, setiap pagi, saat gw harus masuk kelas, gw harus ngelewatin anak2 sd yang kelasnya di lantai satu, gw harus ngelewatin belasan anak laki2 nakal yang meneriakan kata2 yang sangat menusuk hati "Banci banci banci,,,,,!!!!!"

ya itu sarapan gw hampir setiap hari....

thanks God, gw bisa melewatinya..

di SMA, gw harus jalan kaki dari tempat mangkal angkot ke pintu gerbang sekolah, sepanjang jalan banyak senior2 yang nongkrong,, lagi gw harus mendengar ejekan ejekan itu,,,
"cantiiiik,,, kenalan dooong..."

di universitas, gw kuliah di luar jakarta, sampai sekarang, awalnya gw kos di sebuah daerah yang untuk ke kosan, gw harus jalan kaki, melewati rumah2 kontrakan, anak2 kecil dan orang tua selalu mencibir, selalu mengejek gw banciii banciii pada saat gw melalui rumah mereka, gw harus milih jalan lain untuk menghindari mereka, dengan konsekuensi jaraknya yang lebih jauh ke kosan gw...

oke gw nyerah, dan gw pindah kos...

mencari kos ternyata tidak semudah membalikan telapak tangan,,
beberapa kali gw ditolak oleh pemilik kos untuk alasan yang sangat tidak masuk akal.. alasan udah dibooking orang, alasan untuk para angkatan baru sangat tdk make sense, seolah gw bisa membaca pikiran mereka " banci, banci,, jangan kos disini, nanti jadi aib" "iiiih cowok kok kyk gtu. jangan kos disini, pasti anaknya ancur"

ya gw terima..

gw ngambil ilmu jiwa, salah satu dosen pernah menceramahi gw, masaalah gay, agama, norma, dll.. gw disuruh janji dihadapan kelas untuk tidak berbuat macam2... emangnya berbuat macam2 macam apa buuu???...paling cuma make love dengan orang yang gw suka,,, hehehe...

gw disuruh berjanji untuk menjadi lelaki sejatii...
lelaki sejatii macam apa sih????
gw juga masih bisa kok buat ngehamilin pewong, hehehehe.. i still have penis, sperm.. so what, im real man khan... lol

as i know, i become a slut, more than bitch... i alwyas feel lonely, yes lonely,,,

dont ask about relationship to me... relationship just exizt on my dream, my imajination, with all of my effort, i try to pull it out to become real, but God has another plan..

i accept
..

im Sissy, im gay...
i accept, my friends accept, i know my familly supporting me, and i know God loves me,
He'll kill me if He hated me soo..

now, big Question mark on me, is there gay manly Top, who like sissy man like me??????
who want to share his love, his life, his tears, his laugh, his shoulder..

im wait..

Hey, im sissy, im slutty and i have dignity-

saturday night, April 20th 2008

its saturday, early morning, my fren dean called me, mata masih tertutup, pikiran masih berada dalam alam ketidaksadaran, mendengar dean berbicara, entah ga inget dia bicara apa, yang jelas "saturday nite mo pada kemana?"

oke dari ketidaksadaran langsng b'bicara "A w DP mall"

sip..

bbrapa jam kemudian, baru sadar,

hati gundah, kenapa mesti ngabisin waktu di A w dP mall, hmmm takut klo pemandangan kurang elok disana, calling temen2 yang lain, dapet persetujuan akhir "Mcd java mall lanjut our.s"

dari pagi ud siap2. sore jam 7 kumpul di mc d java, dean mo curhat ttg pacar barunya.. oke..

jam 7 lewat sedikit ud nyampe java mall, rame banget, ternyata ada lomba2 artis2an gt, yaaah isinya kebanyakan sekong2 yang gw sering liat di salah satu club di smg, hihi...

langsur meluncur ke mcd java mall, dean datang, kami pun berbincang,
dari mc d pindah lokasi ke Basilia cafe, ditemani sepiring chiken steak, french fries n ga ketinggalan sebotol bir, yum, perbincangan berlanjut, teman2 lain berdatangan,

pindah lokasi d zone cafe, ternyata penuh dengan pria2 penggemar sepak bola, nonton bola bareng, karna kita pria2 yang tidak gemar bola, pindah lah kami ke warung sate depan, maakan sebentar, langsung pindah lagi ke lawang sewu, dean ga berani buat masuk, kita cuma foto2 di tugu muda

pulangnya gw dianter ian, ian salah satu sahabat gw, yang baru jadian itu tuh, yang kisah cintanya gw tulis di postingan gw sebelumnya.

ditengah jalan dia minta maaf, hmmmm sebentar lagi ian bakal pergi ninggalin semarang, hmmmm perasaaan yang saama waktu sahabat gw chitte harus balik ke daratan kalimantan.

gw kesepian, gw kesepian, gw kesepian...

gw kesepian.........













thank u gays for being my fren, cant let u go, and please dont go...
im alone right here, feel so lonely, feel so lonely,
u gays have fillin' my life, fillin' my heart
thank u gays, thank u..

i love u gays-